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Action Replay: October 2017

Soumya Prasad
Soumya Prasad
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It was only when Goodreads sent me a mail asking me to vote for my favorite books of 2017, that I realized that we're towards the end of the year. I still remember new year's eve and the terrible hangover that followed and now I have to plan another new year's party? Where are the days going? I have not even completed 20% of the things that I had planned for the year and now a new year beckons? Maybe, I can just push off my resolutions to the new year instead. Now that I am done with the initial drama, let's get to the post. It's November already and to be honest I'm glad this year is moving quickly. It has not been a very good year for me and I can't wait to start a fresh year again. However, the last few months have been pretty good and it helped me immensely to grow as a person. October was no less.

I've been so terribly overworked that one fine day I just decided not to do a few things. No, not like forever, but just for a few days. I needed a break from everything around. Since I can't not do things at office, work remained the same. It is my bread and butter after all. With all the other things around, I took a backseat consciously. In May I had an emotional burnout and in October I had it again along with a physical one. I was way too tired of everything around me and I just wanted to stay away from everything for a while. Even the things that I loved. Initially, I thought I was being stupid. But then it turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life. Since I have a supporting partner, I stepped away from household chores too. Not completely, but I definitely slowed down. Instead of three meals, I cooked one a day. Instead of scrubbing the kitchen clean every day, I let him do it or I did it every other day. Normally, this would bother me, but this time it didn't. I really wanted to slow everything down.

Reading did take a backseat too. This year I read a lot and somewhere I felt that I was pushing myself too hard in terms of this hobby. Yes, I love to read but suddenly it felt like I was doing too much of it. I know that the thought is only in my head, but that is the very problem. I completed 'The Handmaid's Tale' early October and the only other novel that I read after that was 'Big Little Lies'. I also read 'We Should All Be Feminists' and it was a brilliant short read. This time I only read for the first fifteen days of the month. I picked up 'To Kill A Mockingbird' almost immediately and after one chapter the burnout hit hard. For some weird reason, classics have this effect on me. Every reading break of mine has been in between classics. Be it 'Lolita' or 'Gone With The Wind', which I am yet to finish. I'll start the reading for November with the Harper Lee classic, but I'm going to take my own sweet time with it. I'll review the other two books that I finished sometime soon.

Just like reading, I let go of writing too. When I decide to give up something, I just go full on. It works brilliantly for me. After a couple of posts, I had zero motivation to write. And this clearly shows in the last two posts of mine. Not that I wrote it for namesake, but somehow it didn't live up to my own expectations. I wanted to continue my writing break through November too, but last night I had a dream about the A to Z challenge for next year and how I was struggling to come up with a theme for it. This morning I work up missing my blog. Silly, I know, but it's true. Hopefully, I'll keep the momentum going for the whole month.

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I recently learnt the nuances of Twitter and I'm active on and off. I am not too big a fan of social media and the only platform I enjoy these days is Instagram. Twitter is a very loud platform and I do follow some interesting people. While I was younger, I used to think seriously about what status to put on Facebook everyday. Soon, the fad died and my profile remained stagnant. Twitter on the other hand fascinates me. Too many people, too much noise and too many opinions. There is love too followed by equal amount of anger and vitriol. I realized that it is so easy to piss off people in 140 characters and how almost everything that one has to say gets misconstrued. Maybe Twitter is not for honest and blunt people like me, but then who's to judge? It is funny when people say that Twitter exists for us to express our opinion and then get offended when one does. Not every tweet is meant for someone, sometimes it is just a thought. A one-off musing too, maybe, but the debate it causes can be amusing and appalling at times. I continue to be there and continue to say what I have to say the way it is. How others take it, is not my problem.

The highlight of October was the vacation that Cal and I took. We went to Sikkim for a whole week and were away from technology and people, the things that bother us the most. This was one of the best vacations that we've had and I came back feeling thoroughly rejuvenated and a few changed beliefs. Travel always does that to me, it makes me a slightly better person. Sikkim is way too beautiful than I had expected it to be and we saw some fascinating scenery. This timeout from everything else is what my body, mind and soul needed.

I have always been a no nonsense person. Be it at work or in personal life. I intend to keep it that way too. Taking a step back and slowing things down has worked like a charm on me. I'm much calmer and more at peace now. Content and happy, I always was. As a working woman who manages a home, multitasking comes naturally to me. But now I have considerably cut down the number of things I take on my plate. I can do more, I know. But for a while I don't want to. It is doing good for my sanity and I want it to stay that way.

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How was your October?
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