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Action Replay: 2017

Soumya Prasad
Soumya Prasad
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2017 is finally done and I couldn't be happier. I know that I have complaining a lot about the year gone by, but as I sit down to write about it, I realize that it was not all that bad. It taught me a lot of lessons, helped me let go of many things and made me a better person. When I look at it this way, 2017 has been a very important year for me. Before we roundup the year, let's see how December fared.

December was a peaceful and happy month for me. Since I had taken a break from reading after having completed my reading challenge for the year, I had a lot of free time on my hands once I was done with work. I was able to prioritize work better and use the time I had way more effectively. As I was not reading, I devoted my time to baking, designing or watching Netflix. I loved the book 'Big Little Lies' so I caught up on the series and loved it as well. The ending in the series could have been better, but it was good nonetheless. December taught me the importance of love, once again. Thanks to Virat and Anushka's dream wedding. I know it may sound silly, but they somehow reaffirmed my faith in love. This made me feel so lucky and blessed to be married to the love of my life and getting to spend my life with him. I am a feminist yes, so I would not say that every woman needs a man. But I'll say this, every woman needs someone by her side who makes her feel strong, beautiful and cherished. This can be the partner, a friend or just the mirror. Or all three.

December was breezy and calm with nothing eventful. We rang in the new year at home with a couple of friends. It was slow, peaceful and quiet. Just like the way we liked it. Earlier we used to party hard with noise and all the bling. As we grew old together, we realized that all that doesn't make sense anymore. We just needed to have a quiet time and that is exactly what we did. Kissing the one you love at the stroke of midnight is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world. If you have it, you are blessed enough. Thus, December ended beautifully for me.

365 days ago, when 2017 started, nothing seemed to go right. While January was pretty decent, from February everything started going downhill. Mom fell sick and was hospitalized for close to a month. I was trying to balance work, a home and running up and down the hospital from one end of the city to another. It was one of the toughest periods of my life. It drained me out completely. Emotionally, mentally, physically and financially. All that I had built for myself was gone. Thankfully, mom healed pretty quickly and came out of the hospital with flying colors. That was a victory in itself. But it also meant that I had to start everything from scratch. I was torn completely and experienced the worst burnouts of all. I took help to come out of this zone and it helped me immensely. Slowly, I was back on my feet trying to regain my strength and sanity.

It wasn't a easy process. It took me more than six months to get back to being myself. I struggled through periods of low self-esteem, self-doubt, anxiety, fear and despair. I had to push myself at every step and not let my mind wander. It was a battle within myself that I had to win. I reorganized my life after this. I learnt to be more calm and finally learnt to let go. That need to do everything at a given point of time was eating me up. Once I decided to slow down, ask for help and let go of a few things, things became much clearer in my head. Reading helped me a lot during this phase. I was looking for distractions and the world of books gave me just that. The only time that I could forget everything that I was going through was when I had a book in my hand. The fact that I read 53 books this year does show something, doesn't it?

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2017 taught me how to heal myself. Most importantly it taught me that in order to get better you should feel the need to get better. You need to want to get better. It is very easy to dwell in melancholy and give up on life and complain, but what sort of a life would that be? Once you accept the problem you have, it is important to seek help. Then, you need to put in all the effort and strength you have to get better. That's the only way. 2017 also taught me the importance of having only very few people in your life. While family continues to be a disappointment, a handful of friends more than make up for it. Most people have forgotten humanity these days. Money and status is the only thing some people use to weigh people and this shows what a small person they are. All humans should just know and understand two things. One, every other person is a human too. Two, the other person has feelings, emotions and opinions too. Money and riches do not define a person. I come from a middle-class family. But today, I have everything that I need. While I am proud of all that I have achieved, I never forget where I have come from.

2017 has a vital role in making me the person that I am today. From showing me the dirty true colors of people to helping me realize my own strength, it has made me a much better person. All this would have not been possible without having my pillar of support, my husband, by my side. He stood by me through thick and thin and held me up when I was crumbling down. I don't know what I have done in my past lives to deserve someone so kind, loving and generous. He makes me want to be a better person everyday. I would not have survived 2017 without him and the fact that I have him by my side makes every hiccup bearable. My strength, my support, my love and my soul mate.

Travel was good in 2017. That is something neither of us would compromise on. We need that break from our regular, mundane lives. We need time away from everything else. Just to be. Just to feel the need to be lost and found again. Together, we do that beautifully.

Yes, now that I look back, 2017 was not all that bad. If anything, it was a year of survival for me. 2018 shall be the same too. But I walk into 2018 a much better person, and I have 2017 to thank for that.

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Wishing you all a very Happy New Year. May 2018 be the year of love, travel, happiness and everything that your heart desires!
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